Forward Stance

If only it were so simple
A click of a button
I would forget your dimples
I would forget the fun

I would forget the moments
That made me love you more
The seduction of your scent
Now I'm left closing my hearts door

Why is it so hard to let go
I know we don't fit right
I know
But regardless my heart holds on tight

Cheeks wet and stained
From tears of heartbreak
Memories are what remained
From the mistakes I did make

I thought a second chance
Would mean we would get it right
I didn't want to end our romance
I held on too tight

Now I let you go
I wish you well
I know
Only time will tell

If you were the best choice I made
Or if you were the worst
In time the memory of you shall fade
As well as my craving of you, my thirst

I wish it didn't hurt so much
To say goodby to you
To give up your touch
Give up us and what I knew

I know I have to grow
You were a lesson for me to learn
Now I know
But for you I still yearn

I wish the best in all you do
I will move on
But I will always love you
Even though your gone


 NaejAdnil(c)10/01/14

Unbind the Fear for Love

If only if it could be so easy
To love with no fear
No insecurities
To love you my dear

But echos wave in my thoughts
I cling on to
Past hurts where my heart was caught
As I become closer to you

It's not you at all
It's my self doubt and worry
My own past heartbreaks and falls
That now hold onto me

Like a web wrapped tight
I push and struggle through
For you my hope and desire fights
To welcome you

I breath you in
Like a new start
I have faith again
Feeling the joyful beats in my heart

Quiet the past that suffocates
The dangerous creative mind
False thoughts that intoxicates
Hope and heart beat to unbind

Muddle of incorrect perception
Should just think the best
Welcome you every time with positive reception
Time for my insecurities to rest

Settle the fears
Stand up tall
Allow myself to be loved and love you dear
Allow myself to fall

If only if it could be so easy
To love with no fear
No insecurities
To just unconditionally love you my dear

NaejAdnil(c)09062012

The Emotionally Unavailable Man

So I get to that point where
It no longer matters
It's just then that my fear
Comes to life and scatters

I think love is just a game
Only some win
For me it's always the same
It's ends as quick as it did begin

Then the door opened before me
There he stood
Vision becomes too blurry to see
I stand there misunderstood

Distance and walls
Faced before my heart with every beat
Then he calls
I sink and give in to my defeat

I began to reach out
Only to find he would recoil
Isn't this what love IS NOT about
My heart fighting my inner turmoil

I pull back
He begins to chase me
The common sense fades to black
I find I can't just be happy

He lacks the ability to use his words
Silent stares and change of subject
I have never felt so unheard
Marked by the word reject

I know I never did anything to feel so empty
It's a past before him I realize
It's some insecurity feasting in me
He awakes it and I am left to summarize

Days go by
Without a phone call
I think it's over with this guy
But then it rings and I fall

Back into the rhythm of confused space
With an emotionally unavailable man
I felt defeated in this space
I've done all I can

I am left feeling deflated
Unable to connect
I patiently waited
But him I could not affect

The way he did affect me
In fact I guess he didn't feel a thing
He never wanted more with me
Just the bata bing and bata bang

Emotionally unavailable man why
Why mark me with your kiss
I now say goodbye
And question what exactly is it that I miss

NaejAdnil(c)8282012