All Roads Lead to You

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You are some kind wonderful
Now I have meet you
Life has become more meaningful
You just don't know what you do...

What you do to me
You get me to play
You bring out the best in me
I thought faded away

Right before I had meet you
I had hung out on happy & single avenue
But I got curious about something new
So I crossed Hope road and walked until I saw you

And that's where we did meet
On the corner street
Of Love and All Dreams come true
This is where I meet you

We talked and hung out
On lustful and Desire avenue
I don't remember exactly what we talked about
I just remember how I felt for you

There is truth in a spark
Shines away all that is bleak and dark
Reawakens ones heart
As we strolled the road of a New Start

I thought I had put away
My love and hope on a shelf
But then that one unexpected day
I crossed paths with your sexy self

You seemed to have the secrete code
All the right signals you were sending
As we walked on Happy road
And worked on the lane called Best Ever Ending

Now we live at the corner of
Loving Companionship
And Amazing Mutual Love
I'm enjoying this fun loving strip

We do hang out a lot on naughty bend
And respectful way
Always enjoy our walks on best friends
Lane everyday

And now we venture too
All Wonderful Possibilities Highway
And intersect on I'm in Love Avenue
Im so in awe of you in every which way

All roads lead
Right back you
As love and desire continue to seed
And blossom a beautiful life on I'm Happy to be Your Girl avenue


LindaJean©LJS051620161111

AUDIO VERSION OF POEM

New Way Chatter

It’s a world
Of #NewWayChatter
Social media whirl
Into things that do and don’t matter

It’s an age of selfies
Group and BBF selfies
You and the dog selfies
You driving the car selfie

Everything is fb this
Twitter that
Communication seems amiss
#WhatsThatMonkeyJugglingCat

It’s mainstream
Blinding overdose of words
So much technology mumbo jumbo screams
It’s hard to be seen let alone heard

Online market for business
Is booming and smart phones soar
Business for Facebook for that and this
What ever gets them more

My slim body tiny screen
Camera, phone, pc, tv, music, gaming
Social media link device
Has me over connecting

Im making friends through scrabble
Dating through an app
Speaking Turkish babble
Google search within a fingertap 

I’m loosing sleep
As my addiction is feed by technology
#ItsEndless
Time to post another selfie

©LJS04112015

Forward Stance

If only it were so simple
A click of a button
I would forget your dimples
I would forget the fun

I would forget the moments
That made me love you more
The seduction of your scent
Now I'm left closing my hearts door

Why is it so hard to let go
I know we don't fit right
I know
But regardless my heart holds on tight

Cheeks wet and stained
From tears of heartbreak
Memories are what remained
From the mistakes I did make

I thought a second chance
Would mean we would get it right
I didn't want to end our romance
I held on too tight

Now I let you go
I wish you well
I know
Only time will tell

If you were the best choice I made
Or if you were the worst
In time the memory of you shall fade
As well as my craving of you, my thirst

I wish it didn't hurt so much
To say goodby to you
To give up your touch
Give up us and what I knew

I know I have to grow
You were a lesson for me to learn
Now I know
But for you I still yearn

I wish the best in all you do
I will move on
But I will always love you
Even though your gone


 NaejAdnil(c)10/01/14

Connection Seas Apart

When I close my eyes,
Unknown of what I will see,
To my surprise,
You stood before me.

Caress of my fingertips,
Tracing the contours.
Of your body, your lips,
You pulled me close wanting more.

Then my green eyes,
Open to an empty space,
I realize,
I crave you and to see your handsome face.

Connection across the sea,
Perhaps only fleeting this hope of something more,
After all you don't know me,
But I find it's you I adore.

Strange moments,
These we share,
I want to smell your scent,
I want to be there.

As we begin,
Something new,
My soft skin,
Embraced by you.

Laughing as we unwind,
Together we enjoy our day,
To imagine us entwined,
As lust finds it way.

Then my green eyes,
Open to an empty space,
I realize,
I crave you and to see your handsome face.

NaejAdnil(c)05112014

Unbind the Fear for Love

If only if it could be so easy
To love with no fear
No insecurities
To love you my dear

But echos wave in my thoughts
I cling on to
Past hurts where my heart was caught
As I become closer to you

It's not you at all
It's my self doubt and worry
My own past heartbreaks and falls
That now hold onto me

Like a web wrapped tight
I push and struggle through
For you my hope and desire fights
To welcome you

I breath you in
Like a new start
I have faith again
Feeling the joyful beats in my heart

Quiet the past that suffocates
The dangerous creative mind
False thoughts that intoxicates
Hope and heart beat to unbind

Muddle of incorrect perception
Should just think the best
Welcome you every time with positive reception
Time for my insecurities to rest

Settle the fears
Stand up tall
Allow myself to be loved and love you dear
Allow myself to fall

If only if it could be so easy
To love with no fear
No insecurities
To just unconditionally love you my dear

NaejAdnil(c)09062012

The Emotionally Unavailable Man

So I get to that point where
It no longer matters
It's just then that my fear
Comes to life and scatters

I think love is just a game
Only some win
For me it's always the same
It's ends as quick as it did begin

Then the door opened before me
There he stood
Vision becomes too blurry to see
I stand there misunderstood

Distance and walls
Faced before my heart with every beat
Then he calls
I sink and give in to my defeat

I began to reach out
Only to find he would recoil
Isn't this what love IS NOT about
My heart fighting my inner turmoil

I pull back
He begins to chase me
The common sense fades to black
I find I can't just be happy

He lacks the ability to use his words
Silent stares and change of subject
I have never felt so unheard
Marked by the word reject

I know I never did anything to feel so empty
It's a past before him I realize
It's some insecurity feasting in me
He awakes it and I am left to summarize

Days go by
Without a phone call
I think it's over with this guy
But then it rings and I fall

Back into the rhythm of confused space
With an emotionally unavailable man
I felt defeated in this space
I've done all I can

I am left feeling deflated
Unable to connect
I patiently waited
But him I could not affect

The way he did affect me
In fact I guess he didn't feel a thing
He never wanted more with me
Just the bata bing and bata bang

Emotionally unavailable man why
Why mark me with your kiss
I now say goodbye
And question what exactly is it that I miss

NaejAdnil(c)8282012

AWAKEN TO ANEW

I know these four walls
All to well
The structure begins to fall
As I break free from it's spell

Skin tingles
Awaken to anew
Life in the balance it mingles
And charms its way through

Heartbeat struck
With fear
As my mind begins to buck
I fight to see clear

Fog surrounds me
With other people's words
Confusing what will make me happy
My soul needs to be heard

In a moment
Of chaos that surrounds
I stand still and silent
It's then my souls voice is found

Step forward
This is not the time to rest
Move onward
Change is for the best

Skin tingles
Awaken to anew
Life in the balance it mingles
And charms its way through

Concern can be a good sign
Deep breath as my fear I swallow
I courageously cross the line
Onto a new path to follow


NaejAdnil©0520210121030

Twisting and Turning

Don't know where I am headed
Road is twisted and unsteady
I can't find my words
As I am left unheard

Searching eyes
Craving a taste
Left with only goodbyes
In my haste

Twisting and turning
Go the sheets around me
As I am burning
The burning devours me

My own place
The stories it could tell
Now an empty space
I know to well

Here again
Lips carressing skin
Same old dance
In a new romance

Take our chances
Exchange of glances
Brush of his skin
Leaving me burning

Twisting and turning
Go the sheets around me
As I am burning
The burning devours me

Intrigue me
With a new taste
Suprise me
With moments that won't waste

Unhide
Your heart
Slide
Into a new start

Give me a fire
Light my heart
Ignite my desire
Set it to start

Twisting and turning
Go the sheets around me
As I am burning
The burning devours me

NaejAdnil(c)04082012

CONNECTED BY STARLIGHT

My heartbeat

In rhythm with yours

Longing to meet

How much space can we endure

The stars and the moon

The same regardless where we stand

Twilight connects me to you

I reach out my


Time and space

Seperates us in this moment

Feel trapped in our own place

Heart longing and spent

Words breathed out loud

Wanting your breath on my skin

Only the sound

Travels to reach you within


Close my eyes

To envision you

As I realize

It has been too long without you

Run my fingers through

Your hair

As I smile at you

While I’m naked and bare

My fingertips

Trace over the contours of your body

Embraced by your lips

As I’m longing for more

Desire surge and binds

We begin crossing the fine line

Our bodies Intwined

As your skin caresses mne

Your lips pressed against mine

As our hands explore

Your body pressed against mine

As we are desiring more

Lost in your scent

Lost in your touch

Intense moments

Never is too much

But then I open my eyes

See the stars and the moon

I realize

I am without you

Left with an ache

Pushing away the pain

Loving you is the choice I make

AS my heart never wanes

The stars and the moon

The same regardless where we stand

Twilight connects me to you

I reach out my hand

Time and space
leaves my heart bent
Feel trapped in our own place
Seperates us in this moment

NAEJADNIL(C)121210

BURNING

Heat building
Rhythm of sounds flow
As we are standing
Caressed by the intensity to let go

Motions of movement
But all I see is you just then
As I take in your scent
Smiling at you again

Pulled in by your embrace

The burning begins
Taken in by your handsome face
As you lean in

Your lips brush mine

My tongue explores
As we cross the line
Urging for more

Skin burning, burning

Drawn in by the taste of you
Kissing again and again
Crowded room all I see is you
 
Small talk
Hands embrace
As we walk
To another crowded place

Heat rises

As the sweat of you is on my skin
Neither realizes
As we both are burning

For this moment we are impressed

We rock with the beat
Bodies pressed
Desire rises with the heat

Unwilling to unlock

To unintwine
As we rock
And jump over the line

Breath you in

Kisses soft and slow
As you caress my skin
Never wanting to let this moment go

NAEJADNIL(C)062811

Breaking Point

A volume of undense
Porportion
That never makes sense
For any notion
It's dizzyness
It's confusion
Sickness
Living with an illusion
To be haunted
As you're pushed aside
Left unwanted
As your desires hide
Silent scream
Building through
As I dream a dream
That most do
To have and behold
The eyes I desire to
Glance and keep hold
Caressing parts of you
To cherish and feel
Love truths untold
Kiss and seal
Forever your trust I hold
Yet it's not real
Your not here
I'm alone in this deal
Your nowhere near
So it's emptyness
One plus no one
Equals loneliness
When your with someone
How do I escape
How do I not get caught
The break and scrapes
Of my heart that begins to rot
I'm lost among the words
It's not what It seemed
As I'm unheard
In this dream I dreamed

NaejAdnil(c)08172008

CONFESSION

Spinning of thoughts
As his words sputter out
A message unsought
Whisphers escalate to shouts

Ripped from the heart
Fears now realized as true
Life together now crumbling apart
He is now see thru

Try to see past
Painful beats in my chest
Standing steadfast
To do what is best

One foot out the door
Weight of air
Fall broken to the floor
Tears from his stare

Fight to stand tall
Push myself through
He crumbles and out my name he calls
I tell him," "I never knew you"

Heart thump, thump, ache, thump ache
His hand reaches for mine
I pull away and my courage I take
As I wearily cross the line

NaejAdnil(c)03152012

STAGNET

It's that moment
When you wake from the dream
Embraced by reality all bent
Everything is what it's seems


This was not the picture
Of who you imagined to be
Emoitions blended in a mixture
Joy, saddness, grief and being happy


Dreams of more
Then you find
With each open and closed door
You circle a pattern in your mind


Found love so empty
Life so bland and blank
Midlife so unhappy
As your heart sank


More and more goodbies
There is more than this
More than false hope and lies
There is moments of bliss


Yet the box of your success
Resides around you like a curse
No bliss, no one to miss
From good to worse


How to turn the table
How to be more than a waste of flesh
How to be able
Start anew and fresh


The door stands locked
You stand determined to try
Ambition will knock
Old life will die


To stand still
All becomes stagnet
You want to love, to feel
You want to be in the thick of it


You're in the moment
Time you wake to a new reality
No more time spent
Dwelling on what could be


Yet the darkness
Holds on tight
Like a sexy kiss
It's a struggle to fight


To change
It's that moment
It's real and so strange
As reality becomes unbent


Old patterns circle in your mind
Struggle to walk through the open door
Courage and desire you need to find
To have more


Otherwise you never truly feel
Never enjoy being in the thick of it
You will only stand still
Remaining stagnet


naejadnil(c)03122012

First sight

Brown eyes
Locked on green
Taken by surprise
As he is seen

Smile from sensual lips
Soft and sweet
He walks and trips
As they first meet

Smile wide
Fire surging through
As he can no longer hide
He is now see through

Their hands brush
Electrical charge vibrates
Conversation to a hush
As it is passing beyond late

Conversation flows
Feeling at ease
Desire grows
As she begins to tease

Fingers laced
He admires her
With hands embraced
Only wanting to b closer

New territory to learn
As hands explore
The fire within burns
As they desire for more

In their haste
Flirtation, laughter & wit
Lips brush with a sexy taste
And they can't get enough of it

(c)naejadnil02.2012

Tragedy

I lay with a mark
Inside my shell
Deep and dark
In my own personal hell

It's spinning
Unprocessed
No beginning
As my twisted thoughts possess

My own mind
Is my own enemy
Comfort I seek to find
Yet it never sets me free

Im staggered bent
I'm imprisoned by
Dark imprints
That will never die

Twisted wire
Is the pit in belly
Unignited desire
Wanting to be

Stepping with soars
Ripping through
My very core
As I begin anew

Cells scream
Breath out loud
Dream just dream
Pretend to walk proud

In these passing weeks
Darkness calls
Down my cheeks
Wetness falls

Time takes
My stillness
My heart awakes
As less

Pain surges
Words to be said
Confused within urges
Lost in my head

Numbness takes over me
I walk onward
Eyes blind to see
As I move forward

I step out
Air brushes my skin
Traffic all about
Taking life in

I am unglued
Changed in reality
My perspective is skewed
Unable to be

Darkness rid
The light in me
I can no longer see as I did
Living through this tragedy

NaejAdnil(c)4.4.2009

Customer Serverice

Odd sensations
Wrapped up tight
Building frustrations
Ready to fight

Drag dead weight
Of my two feet
Anticpate
The heat

Hot words
Heavy handed
Customers wanting to be heard
No there demanding

Telephone locked
Onto my merciless ear
Unable to block
The range of emoitions I hear

Hour by hour to be paid
To endure this chaos
Once upon a time I had it made
Now I take a loss

Keystrokes
Reports set aside
As I hear out the folks
That eageraly confide

Their trauma
which sometimes is a lie
Writing down their drama
Listen to them I try

Down the isle
stride a step as I have begun
Pulling out the files
one by one

Digging deeper
To unfold
The truths of the keeper
of a job unsold

NaejAdnil©2012

In the Moment

Twisting and turning
Down the neverending pathway
Freezing then burning
Through the hours of the day


Smiling and frowning
Caring and pretending
Crying to clowning
Breaking and amending


Loving and then fighting
Talking until silent
Kissing and biting
Then still in the moment


I look into your gaze
As you look into mine
Together we journey though this maze
As we walk a fine line


Moaning and screaming
Fucking to love making
Resting and then sleeping
Giving and then taking


Anger to lust
Speaking until silent
Empty then full until it bust
Then still in the moment


Pulling and pushing
Wanting and lusting
Waiting and rushing
Talking and then cussing


Kissing and caressing
Tugging and stroking
Embraced and then missing
Bored to envoking


Confused and then clear
Lost and then found
Deaf and then we hear
Gone and then your around


Calm then passionate
Lustful and playful
Out of place until we fit
Emabraced and grateful


Loving and then fighting
Talking until silent
Kissing and biting
Then still in the moment

Naej Adnil (c) copyright 2/2010

CORPORATE SLAVE

Those good days were deleted
As I push through the files
My energy now depleted
Can't keep up with fake smiles


Its corporate america where I
Feed my soul through the check in
When I check out a piece of me dies
Then I start over again


I sit beneth the ultra bright
Glare of the choice I made
Baking in corporate light
As the artist in me begins to fade


Color of grey
Surrounds my peripheral vision
Every working day
They remind us of the corporate mission


Who was I
Where was I headed
Piece by piece I die
Alittle more as I'm shredded


Away from who I use to be
I was of brilliant color
I shined so bright for all to see
No my shade grows duller


I walk and move freely
Yet I feel the corporate weight
Always with me
Tearing away at my true fate


Prisoner by the economy
To make ends meat
There is so much more to me
Working here leaves me incomplete


I deisire to tackle
My own mission to complete
To break these corporate shackles
And no longer take a backseat


Naej Adnil © 2008

WANE OF THE MOON

She stands in the rain
As her heart yearns
She watches the moon wane
As she burns


Stillness
Overcomes her heart
Among the mess
That kept them apart


She reaches out
She looks to him
Left with doubt
All too well she knows him


As he is too young to hold on
She slips away
As they watch the setting of the sun
Her heart sways


He tries to love her
Yet life pulls him away
He says to come over
Her lust leaves her with nothing to say


Time seperates their desires
Space inbetween
He reaches for her
His attempts are unseen


She stands in the rain
As her heart yearns
She watches the moon wane
Forever for him she burns


Naej Adnil © 2008

TAINTED

I utter

the unheard
sputter
of each word

I stood

steadfast
as long as I could
last


He glared
He fought
over what we shared
but he had been caught


Bad luck
Karmas swift kick
I was struck
My wounds I lick


Voices rise
Eyes widen
He spitted lies
Nothing to hide him


Eyes squint

As the pain surged

Heart bent
Memories must be purged


I lusted
I got lost in the moment
Now he's busted
Painful to smell his scent


We are now
I and you
Somehow
I'll forget you


I walk
away from your mess
No more talk
Push away your caress


Your heart is black
Your words tainted through
I don't want you back
I just want to get over you

 Naej Adnil(c) 032010