All Roads Lead to You

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You are some kind wonderful
Now I have meet you
Life has become more meaningful
You just don't know what you do...

What you do to me
You get me to play
You bring out the best in me
I thought faded away

Right before I had meet you
I had hung out on happy & single avenue
But I got curious about something new
So I crossed Hope road and walked until I saw you

And that's where we did meet
On the corner street
Of Love and All Dreams come true
This is where I meet you

We talked and hung out
On lustful and Desire avenue
I don't remember exactly what we talked about
I just remember how I felt for you

There is truth in a spark
Shines away all that is bleak and dark
Reawakens ones heart
As we strolled the road of a New Start

I thought I had put away
My love and hope on a shelf
But then that one unexpected day
I crossed paths with your sexy self

You seemed to have the secrete code
All the right signals you were sending
As we walked on Happy road
And worked on the lane called Best Ever Ending

Now we live at the corner of
Loving Companionship
And Amazing Mutual Love
I'm enjoying this fun loving strip

We do hang out a lot on naughty bend
And respectful way
Always enjoy our walks on best friends
Lane everyday

And now we venture too
All Wonderful Possibilities Highway
And intersect on I'm in Love Avenue
Im so in awe of you in every which way

All roads lead
Right back you
As love and desire continue to seed
And blossom a beautiful life on I'm Happy to be Your Girl avenue


LindaJean©LJS051620161111

AUDIO VERSION OF POEM

The Unveiling

unveiled©ljs5172015

its a rhythm and a flow
within in every breath
i slowly began to let go
in waking life and in death

i took the blue pill
down the rabbit hole i went
now i can see what is truly real
and the lies i never meant

the light filtered through
my skin
it shined like new
and a new journey now begins

the light revealed
the truth
breaking the seal
covered in lies from my youth

i existed
and i was dead
i coexisted
within the lie that was said

i believed the lies of the blind
the lies of misguided souls
and i find
the truth as it unfolds

there has been a shift
i will never be the same
my heart smiles and lifts
the lies and earase the blame

i create the life i live in
i am responsible for all that is
so it is now that my life really begins
now i understand this

the darkness falls away
i reconnect above
now i enjoy each day
now i embrace love

now im no longer aloof
no longer isolated
i live and speak my truth
the pain has faded

we all have the power to be free
we all must love within
to be able to give it and be happy
time for a new world to begin

come with me down the rabbit hole
you dont need the blue pill
just love and forgive from your soul
then you'll be the beauty of what is real

©LJS05172025

New Way Chatter

It’s a world
Of #NewWayChatter
Social media whirl
Into things that do and don’t matter

It’s an age of selfies
Group and BBF selfies
You and the dog selfies
You driving the car selfie

Everything is fb this
Twitter that
Communication seems amiss
#WhatsThatMonkeyJugglingCat

It’s mainstream
Blinding overdose of words
So much technology mumbo jumbo screams
It’s hard to be seen let alone heard

Online market for business
Is booming and smart phones soar
Business for Facebook for that and this
What ever gets them more

My slim body tiny screen
Camera, phone, pc, tv, music, gaming
Social media link device
Has me over connecting

Im making friends through scrabble
Dating through an app
Speaking Turkish babble
Google search within a fingertap 

I’m loosing sleep
As my addiction is feed by technology
#ItsEndless
Time to post another selfie

©LJS04112015

He's My "It's Complicated" Guy

I set my alarm to wake me at six in the morning and I have decided tomorrow morning I will wake up, have breakfast, workout and walk the dog before I go to work. What could go wrong? My dog hops into bed and takes over the left side.  He looks at me, waiting for me.  I slip into bed next to him.

It’s nine o’clock and I close my eyes to drift to sleep.  Thoughts of the day pass through my mind.  I start reliving moments with customers that really bothered me.  I just try to clear my mind as it begins to stress me out.

Nine-thirty, I began thinking about Jim and  recall our fight we had a couple of days ago.  I begin to wonder why he hasn’t called to work it out.  Perhaps it’s for the best and I try to think myself into being single.  I’m on facebook on my phone.  I’m looking at my relationship status and I wonder if I should change it from being in a relationship to “it’s complicated”.

Ten o’clock, I realize I probably shouldn’t have drank that green tea right before going to bed. Off to the bathroom I go and I grab my phone, I check it and see I have a missed text.  It’s from Jim.  I can’t help but think he is my “it’s complicated” guy.   Nothing can be simple or easy with him.  Part of what attracts me to him and in the same it frustrates the hell out of me.  After three years with him, I thought it would be easier but now I wonder how compatable we really are.

I look at the clock glaring ten thirty and wonder why I can’t sleep?  Why did I look at my darn phone?!  Now I can’t stop thinking about him.  I am confused about us.  I am thinking about walking away for good.  I begin to feel frustrated I’m not asleep, frustrated I have to pee again and frustrated with Jim.

It’s midnight and I am almost done with writing and editing another chapter of my never ending book.   I pick up my phone again after I return from the bathroom….again!  I change my alarm to wake me at seven instead.  I decide I will have to walk the dog after work.  I start organizing my schedule for the week.  I cuddle with the dog who is trying to ignore me cause he is happily sleeping.

One in the morning and I am playing word with friends scrabble. I have 30 games.  I push back my alarm to eight in the morning.  I remember memories that seem unimportant, I’m not sure why I am thinking of them now.  The client from this morning that got under my skin replays in my mind.  I breath and focus on clearing out my thoughts again.  I remember the first time Jim kissed me.  How he pursued me relentlessly and now he goes almost two days without a word.  Just a text that doesn’t help clarify or resolve anything!  I feel we are not right for each other anymore.  I hate how this feels.  I’m frustrated I’m not asleep and I have to go to the damn bathroom again!

Two in the morning, I’ve given up all hope and pushed my alarm to ten.  I don’t have to be in the office until noon.  I will just skip my work out.  I pick up a book and read some. It perhaps was not the best choice, as it is filled with all sorts of interesting stuff and it is hard to stop reading, especially when things get steamy but then I start thinking of Jim again and feel sad and I miss being held by his big strong arms.  I miss how good he smells.  Then I realize my bladder is the size of a peanut.  How can one cup of green tea make me pee this much?!

Three o’clock, I decide take the dog out for a brief walk in my pjs after I pee.  I put on a coat and head out into the brisk morning with my dog in tow. Strange how quite the neighborhood is.  We get to the creek that runs through the neighborhood.  In the stillness I hear a croaking symphony of what sounds like a hundred bullfrogs.  My dog is happily on a mission to leave his mark and pays no attention to the slimey buggers.  He finds his spot next to the biggest toad I’ve ever seen.  The toad doesn’t move and keeps croaking. It’s a surreal moment.  I wonder if I did fall asleep.  I look up at the stars and they shine so brightly with a haze in the sky.  It looked like the Milky Way.   The moon is full and bright.  I push my two fingers into my other hand to see if they slip through my flesh.  They don’t, this is how I know I am still awake.  My dog has accomplished his mission and he happily walks me back to the house.  I think it was a perfect time to walk in my pjs and flip flops.  I take off my jacket.  My dog gets some water and food and I send a text to Jim as I head back to the dam bathroom.  I have decided to forgive him and tell him I miss his sexy ass and want to know when he will be available for some naughty fun with me?

Three-forty-five, I am in shock I am still awake as I am now back in bed laying in the dark and hating on my clock, as I stare it down.  The dog is fast asleep.  I feel like he has a super power of sleep, how does he do it?!

Four-fourteen, I lie there trying to mediate to calm my busy mind.  Shortly after I finally drift off.

Eleven in the morning I wake up, realizing I set my alarm wrong.  Now I’m late and I rush to get ready and be off.  I step in the shower.  I did not hear Jim come in.  He surprises me and slips into the shower.  He tells me he misses me and he is sorry.  I feel so happy in this moment and enjoy his lips as I taste relief and joy.  I feel his strong arms wrapped around my waste.  I decide to call in sick and spend the day in bed….with my “it’s complicated” guy.

©LJS03262015

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Unconditional Love

She wanted to meet the love of her life, someone loving, fun, smart, dark and handsome and so she began to focus on nothing other than this.  Then one day a black stray dog crossed her path and she took him in.  Very quickly she bonded with him and found she could not let him go.

“I wanted to meet the love of my life!” She sighed as her sister and her were standing in her room and watched the dog hop onto her bed and take over the left side.

Her sister chuckled and walked over to the bed and sat next to him and began petting him as his tail wagged.

“Well at least he doesn’t sleep on your side of the bed and besides you did meet the love of your life and he is loving, fun, short, dark and all so handsome!”  She giggled as he began licking her face.

©LJS03302015

Cookies and The Mud Kings

“Sometimes I dream unimaginable things. Some of which brings me joy and peace and other times my  imaginary mind taps into the dark depths of my soul, to take works of unknown and unwritten fiction and have me experience it first hand within the realms of an alternate dimension, which we know as the dream world.”

I took out a big beautiful chocolate chip cookie from my purse and unwrap it, as I am thinking back on my dream.  Staring at it and enjoying its delicious aroma.  I wonder, ‘why cant I dream of being able to eat all I want in a world made of cookies and meet my idol, Cookie Monster?  He is King to me!’

I continued on what I had to say.  “I understand Cookie Monsters addiction and how well cookies solve alot of problems and perhaps cause them too.”

I wiggle in my chair to move to be more comfortable, as I am aware I have gained a few pounds recently as my jeans are a bit more snug.

I looked out to the group in front of me and passionately state.

“If you love the cookie you must love all of it, for the good and the bad.”

I took a bite and my tastebuds sang.  Then my thoughts returned back to my dream last night.

“The crumble of the cookie has occurred and instead of all that is good and sweet, I remember a world of mud and from the earth rose three unsightly demons.  Tied up, like meat on a stick and wearing an omish style dress that is ten times removed from my style.  I am way to fashionably inclined to be caught dead in such a homely dress.  There were other women that were dressed in the same garb and fastened in rope on the death sticks as well.  Misery likes company but what company was about to visit?  There sure wasn’t a cookie of hope in sight!”

I finish off my cookie, satisfied for the moment as my sugar cravings have subsided.  I continued to speak to the group.

“I recall three demons that arose from the ground and my breath quickened with fear as they were to come for us.  Bad news was I was badly dressed in the dream and my cookie craving returned without a cookie in sight.  Good news is I woke up untouched from evil demons known as the mud kings.  So here is the deal.  I feel that if you eat a cookie or few of them before bed you have a fighting chance to ward them off.  In case they maybe kinda sorta are real.  I mean it isn’t like I am really that creative to come up with demons made from mud.  So I suspect my cookie addiction saved me and I must continue eating cookies if I want to stay alive.  If I stop they may very well kill me.  So you see I’m really not an addict.  I am doing this to survive.  You don’t all want to be responsible for my death do you?”

The counselor shook his head and looked at me like I was a crazy cookie and questioned me.

“Ahh ok so that is your answer?  So my question was how long has it been since you have had any sugar and you just ate a cookie, in front of all of us while telling us you think you will die if you don’t eat cookies before bed and recommend all of us to do the same because of something you dreamt?!”

“Um yeah that sounds about right.”

“Ok, thanks for sharing but you do realize this is a sugar anyomous group and the point is to help you rid of your sugar addiction not help you keep eating cookies right?”

The counselor’s deep look of concern was making me want another cookie.  I looked at the people in the group.  The group looked at me with mixed reactions of shaking heads, frowning, smiling and some just looked puzzled.  I decided to pull out another cookie and eat it before I answered.

©LJS03252015

It Begins with You

We are the end and we are the beginning.  We are hope, we are love, we are the change for a new world.  It starts with ourselves.  To be more than our flaws and to embrace and amplify our love and our passions.  Take steps in the direction that feels right, that you enjoy, that you love and joy shall breath from you and positive inspiration shall affect all those you come in contact with.  Great positive transformations all start within ourselves.

@NaejAdnil03262015

Simmer

There is a calm rush
Over the hidden rage
There is a fierce hush
That enters into the next stage

Quietly you go about it all
Thinking you have control
Until you hit the wall
And are ready to blow

You take in the moment
And many more like it
You remain silent
You let your frustration sit

You try to detach
You try to wait it out
But the fire ignites the match
Out comes the emotional shout

You thought you had such control
You thought you could be positive
You thought you had a grasp on the toll
You thought you could be happy and live

While it simmered
It remained and built up
In hope your rage shimmered
Until you were fed up

Out it made its ugly self present
At the most in opportune time just then
Unaware how unpleasant
Until your see the effects of your rage dig in

Spattered in words of painful expression
On the one you directed it too
Guilt filled from your loud confession
Of how your are fed up and threw

Why act now
Why couldn't I have spoken
Communicated earlier somehow
But now my lover is left wounded and broken

NaejAdnil(c)09072012

The Line that Flows

He is a strait line that flows
While I remain an abstract shape
Where he goes no one knows
While I am stuck between lines at my nape

Unique I thought I was until
I met him strait and narrow
Or north and south if he feels
He moves with the flow

But yet I'm constrained in a shape
None the less
Confined by human rules and red tape
Covered in my life's mess

So here he lays
I am left to wonder
If he chooses he leaves or stays
Not bent out of shape from his blunders

So perhaps the strait line is best
I think I need to know more
I will put him to a test
I lay next to his line on the floor

Without realizing
His line wrapped around my curves
It was quite surprising
As he moved and swerved

He had freedom to conform
To any which way
Any form
He choose that day

I may be a unique abstract
But my shape stays as it always has been
I lack
The ability to break free again and again

Confuse others on which way I may go
Perhaps I'm just a line and I need to try
Like him bend out of shape that I know
Shapes, abstract, tight, loose or wry

I am what I want to be
Go where I want to go
I am free
I am a curved, wavy, complete strait line that flows

His line next to mine
There we now are wrapped up together
We combine
To be something better

No longer caught
In a circle of a dimple
Who would ever thought
Free from something so simple

Now I wrap around and flow
I am what I want to be
I move fast or I can move slow
No more shapes to confine me

Entwined in a beautiful line
He and I as we move forward
Lyrical and rhythm combine
As we flow onward

NaejAdnil(c)09052012

CONNECTED BY STARLIGHT

My heartbeat

In rhythm with yours

Longing to meet

How much space can we endure

The stars and the moon

The same regardless where we stand

Twilight connects me to you

I reach out my


Time and space

Seperates us in this moment

Feel trapped in our own place

Heart longing and spent

Words breathed out loud

Wanting your breath on my skin

Only the sound

Travels to reach you within


Close my eyes

To envision you

As I realize

It has been too long without you

Run my fingers through

Your hair

As I smile at you

While I’m naked and bare

My fingertips

Trace over the contours of your body

Embraced by your lips

As I’m longing for more

Desire surge and binds

We begin crossing the fine line

Our bodies Intwined

As your skin caresses mne

Your lips pressed against mine

As our hands explore

Your body pressed against mine

As we are desiring more

Lost in your scent

Lost in your touch

Intense moments

Never is too much

But then I open my eyes

See the stars and the moon

I realize

I am without you

Left with an ache

Pushing away the pain

Loving you is the choice I make

AS my heart never wanes

The stars and the moon

The same regardless where we stand

Twilight connects me to you

I reach out my hand

Time and space
leaves my heart bent
Feel trapped in our own place
Seperates us in this moment

NAEJADNIL(C)121210

TAINTED

I utter

the unheard
sputter
of each word

I stood

steadfast
as long as I could
last


He glared
He fought
over what we shared
but he had been caught


Bad luck
Karmas swift kick
I was struck
My wounds I lick


Voices rise
Eyes widen
He spitted lies
Nothing to hide him


Eyes squint

As the pain surged

Heart bent
Memories must be purged


I lusted
I got lost in the moment
Now he's busted
Painful to smell his scent


We are now
I and you
Somehow
I'll forget you


I walk
away from your mess
No more talk
Push away your caress


Your heart is black
Your words tainted through
I don't want you back
I just want to get over you

 Naej Adnil(c) 032010